...the journey within...
Where do I even start? I guess...wow! Where have I been. On my drive home today... I...as I often do, was conversing with myself (in my head)... that's normal right?...when I had the sudden urge to blog. I thought...I love reading and writing. I said it and chuckled thinking I'm so basic! That right there, so simple, yet such an amazing feeling. In order to understand, I'm going to have to do something I normally don't... I'll have to open up. On my best days I'm very private...on my worse...it's impossible to get passed my RBF. For the better part of the last 5 years I've struggled with severe depression. I've been a shadow of my former self. Internally battling to present as normal and happy while wanting nothing more than to roll up into a ball and never leave my house again. I've felt alone, overwhelmingly sad, disgusted, ashamed, angry, indifferent. I've tried Lexapro, Trazadone, Zoloft and Wellbutrin in different doses and combi...